How to live the best

So I felt like I have to make things done and get in shape and back to my physical exercise again. And I don’t mean I will be great at punching but I will feel like I can make anything. I just now don’t like what people demand from me and try to get things from me. So also I don’t like what told to do. I just hate it.

I just wish to be around people with only what I want. Grandma wasn’t listening to me because everything is inside her mind and building. So the reason why I need exercise is just for my motivation and longevity.

But I need to ask why? why should I just be getting in shape and
exercising ??? is it because of my outward looking? yes, I like some outlooks. Because without outlook why we need to live the shape is not about outlook it is all about health and longevity.

So why I need to have health because I want to live. Wait…why do I need to live ??? What is the reason ??? Maybe there is an answer that is code I have to follow maybe that is meaningless.

I just have not found any meaning in some nagging philosophy I understand but this is not for me and gives me meaning unless
it is so sexy and provides some meaning and usefulness. I just feel like I’ve beat up 3 times with can’t exercise when I’m trying to balance out things but it never happened before.

I think I must exercise in this balanced way because if I had to exercise in a not balanced way I will not get on time or I will be messed up again like in the Cody. So the only thing I can do is just know how to organize myself and get on time.

And exercise can be done but I think I have to find the motivation or use the Andrew Huberman method of motivation. I can’t think of always pushing myself unless I’m really passionate about it.

I feel passion for my body only if I’m fit but not necessarily mean I am too bulky. I think getting some shape is necessary. So let’s end here because the answer only lies in figuring it out. So also I need to figure out not to react.

And getting out of the crowd and needing to be isolated from the crowd. Because the crowd is dangerous and demanding. I must keep my distance from it and work on my project. And I need to create my company and I don’t know.

People are angry and behave badly and are desperate. I just understand that people seek their own interests and standard. For me, I really do not need to have a standard unless I’m starving or they get time from me unless it is a steal from my goal.

I think I do need a few friends like Joe Rogan, Lex Fridman, and Gs and I wish Elon Musk would be close to me. So I think I’m desperate and lonely. (I should need to find a better word).

I feel like also hate those people that step over my boundaries or whatever is just like something of the image to put on me which also makes me feel inside burn.

I understand or seem like know why it is happening to me. So whatever I must be top of the world because all things I want to do is
really limited now. If I want to buy a Tesla car or just a little bit moves from the place I’m now. Or may be everything can’t be that
easy.

Or should not be easy if all was easy I would not enjoy life. I was a little bit enjoyed and felt like something happened to me which is boring or felt some attack or criticism which is the feedback. So it is okay. I just
think felt like nothing is that much matter like I’m thinking. We will all die in one day.

I don’t think we will live forever. If we will then there is must risk to live. That risk of course makes life more enjoyable. But I felt like I need
to do some excitement the only thing is programming.

But also I felt like there also thing I need to see some angle off it but that makes me bored. If that not makes me bored programming things can’t be cool and exciting.

So I think I need that feeling just to be more to humanity. But I think it is rare. I feel very excited if I see myself in space exploring. And I think if I think more then all humans are just the same basically and everyone has equal happiness and suffering because the mechanism of the body is I think balanced.

Maybe that can’t generate excitement if feel tired or lack energy
but overall excitement will go away what is all about??? even Elon Musk said that he wants to have more excitement in the first way it is fun and good. But the process is just the same as sleep and turn off.

Life turns off and on no matter how it is. If think deeper there is really can’t find any really tangible stuff happening. I just think it is not because of excitement or passion but because my brain is working in a certain way and my body acts a certain way and I think only seen as my body moves but the moment I think I’m thinking and I wanting which is I. So I am the
mental.

So I think regardless of whether I become Elon musk or someone in the lowest status in the world why should I care? My brain
is working and my body moves. All the impulses or intentions are just happening.

Something inside telling me to do I can give as perspective or someone’s voice it is the same thing. I think it is something and something which is I don’t know. The cool thing about reading a book is something is growing inside and find some ideas that I want to do.

And also I must know my brain gives meaning to or go beyond. Where are those passions or desires come from? Of course, chemicals happen through my brain, and if I just give a name to or give a perspective that becomes grow up or was already there.

I think the brain working and consciousness know what I’m thinking and awareness is also the same. So I felt weird for words and
I think I must make things done. Maybe the universe gives me food or my parents develop this. Or the world and earth developed
this.

But some people starving is shameful regardless of their ability. I think the ability below normal is we are often considered as not seen as human it is like animals if we are above normal. I mean not just mental it is all about how survive and how I can live and behave.

So I think people just have to read and exercise and contribute the society with what they know and what is possible to make. Then food and shelter must be highest. Even for people who have some brain damage, I think
give them food under the name of humanity.

And create a better world. Just some people making money because of their business and other people less money even working the same amount and having less nutritious food and knowledge is a shameful thing.
I think I should find some reason for my survival or meaning to it. Like if I become healthier and know my standard and live up then I can contribute the society.

So I think it is time to find meaning in the outlive as books provide
some insight then keep moving and keep coding. I was lost several days like family events. I must be like my dad he came and went out which is the pure reason how he organize other stuff. I just get unbalanced since the silk road meeting.

And no excuse I would always have time to push up more. I make it so hard. So I think I need to write more. And living with my
own standard and boundary. And let my boundary as hard and strong like Elon Musk protecting his companies.

Yes, the only way I can keep shape. But I think I was time but I was just not doing it because I was sitting and reading and sleeping without
washing. So it means organizing my motivation and life.

And If I decide I think I can do it no matter what feeling or motivation
unless I can’t move and am too tired of muscle building which is extreme. There is always a way to develop. I think I Must develop to straighten up my back. I should research and do exercise.

I must code and exercise and experiments as little other areas. And must everyday socialize and networking. I would do this with balance. First of all, I have to stop trying the exercise harder simply warm up then just push up.

Simply warm up then shadow boxing and while doing simply
listen body of pain or some joint discomfort whatever. So do it and be a man. I have to stop as a label mistake or setback.

I just have to understand the now moment and what to do know and what to think and plan or strategy….And forget about biological age and past. We are now. Just keep moving.